When Enough Feels Like Enough
29 Aug 2025
It’s been a week since I last wrote, and today I can feel the weight of that gap. The truth is, I’ve been tired. Not the kind of tired that a nap fixes — but soul tired. The kind of tired that comes from giving and giving until there’s nothing left, and realizing that no one ever really shows up for you in return.
I’m annoyed — annoyed at the constant interference of others in my divorce, annoyed at a husband who threw away a marriage for people who only want to take from him, annoyed at the way it feels like I’ve been left holding everything while everyone else feeds on the pieces.
And beneath that annoyance sits something heavier: I feel used. Over and over again, I’ve poured into people who only ever took. And now? I feel sick of it all. I feel like I just want to withdraw completely, to close the door on everyone and stay there, because at least then the hurt would be quieter.
But withdrawal isn’t only about shutting people out — sometimes it’s about finally choosing yourself. Sometimes it’s about saying, “Enough. I won’t keep bleeding for people who never stop cutting.”
I don’t know if I’m ready to rise above these feelings yet, but I do know this: it’s okay to say you’re done being used. It’s okay to admit that sometimes, it feels like no one gives a damn. And it’s okay to step back until you feel safe enough to come forward again.
Reflection Prompt
When was the last time you realized you were giving far more than you were receiving? How did you respond — and what would it look like if you chose yourself this time?
Closing Thought
It’s not weakness to want to withdraw — it’s self-preservation. Protecting your heart is the first step to rebuilding it.
Suggested Song Pairing
🎵 “Creep” by Radiohead
Much Love,
Stacey
