Where I Am, Right Now
11 Dec 2025
The last couple of weeks have felt like one long stretch of airport gates, hotel rooms, and half-finished cups of coffee. I’ve been on the road again for work — even though, technically, I’m supposed to be on PTO. But life, and this job, have a funny way of rearranging plans without asking for permission. So I packed my bags, adjusted my expectations, and kept moving.
Traveling this much has a way of turning everything into a blur. Days pass quickly, but the emotional weight of what I’m still waiting on feels heavy and unmoving. I’m still waiting for the final appraisal on the Florida property…the last big piece before I finally know what the “ex” owes me. It’s strange how something as clinical as an appraisal can feel like a chapter that refuses to close — but there it is, sitting in limbo with the rest of the unresolved pieces.
And then there are the New York properties — the ones I worked so hard for, the ones that should already be listed, already on the market, already helping me move into my next season. But I can’t even put them up for sale yet because the caretaker still hasn’t moved out.
Not after months of notice.
Not after every polite conversation.
Not after explaining clearly that the court order requires them to be sold.
I’m not happy about it.
I’m tired of waiting for other people to do what they’re supposed to do while my life gets held up in the process. It’s unsettling to feel like your next steps depend on someone else finally taking theirs.
But here’s the truth I’m leaning into tonight:
Even when external things are stuck, I am not.
I keep moving. I keep showing up. I keep doing the next right thing.
I keep building the life that is finally, finally mine.
This season isn’t about stillness — it’s about endurance. It’s about trusting that the pieces will come together in their own time, and that the delays aren’t failures…they’re simply detours.
And despite all of it — the travel, the waiting, the frustration — I can feel myself changing. Becoming more grounded. More certain. More unwilling to let anyone, or anything, pull me backward.
I’m not where I want to be yet.
But I’m absolutely on my way.
Reflection Prompt
Where in your life are you waiting on something outside of your control? How can you keep moving — emotionally or spiritually — even before the situation resolves?
Spotify Track
Song Pairing: I Won't Back Down • Tom Petty
All my love,
Stacey
